Angels exist, believe it or not they do. I just happened to have a small and brief encounter with one. Well, he wasn't really wearing a white robe or showing his wings, but his acts showed me that people can be so good you could even say that certainly they should be given a ticket to Heaven. So sad to know many of them don't, or can't have one now without Him.

It all happened as I and a friend of mine ran for the bus. We got to it just as it was leaving the bus-stop, I opened by backpack to take out my wallet and as I did it I jumped into the bus. I heard something falling and as I looked down around me I found nothing. It all was fast. I jumped out of the bus and looked underneath it. My diskman was there, under the bus, something like a meter away from me and I couldn't reach it. So I asked the confused bus driver - "Could you please reverse a few centimeters, my diskman is there". He just said no and in no-time I calculated the angle the wheels will do, and certainly my dear Sony will be history soon. So I asked - "Are you just going to run it over?" and the pictures in my head were of me buying an iPod 'cuz diskmans are not an option anymore. He didn't understand that I couldn't reach it therefore I asked him to go backwards a few centimeters to save him time and me a very uncomfortable situation. But as I finished saying this I felt someone pushing me away, I just saw how he jumped and landed on his belly, reaching with his hand the diskman. I was puzzled and amazed at the same time, I just said "Thank you very much, brother", he just gave it to me quickly and then added something that I wouldn't ever dream to hear from someone that has just done something for me - "Nothing to thank me for TSADIK (Hebrew word for 'JUST'), may you enjoy a prosperous and long life".
This guy wasn't just someone from the street, as it may have sounded even more acceptable. This guy was not a religius from the Zionistic kind, it was an orthodox guy. A black-suited, black-Kipped (a new verb for Kippa), penguin as he may look to some.

Many times I twitch my nose as I speak about orthodox Jews. They are not something I see as good. They give nothing back to the State that pays their living, they don't go to defend the land on the army and they just make noise. They see people like me, called mostly 'seculars', as bad and not connected to Judaism. They see me as the traitor who selled his identity for utopic ideas as Zionism or worst than that - humanism. But as this guy told me this words I was puzzled, first because I wasn't wearing a kippa showing no connection to Judaism apparently, and second because even if I was wearing one, I wasn't orthodox and therefore certainly not a 'just' like they see it.

I did not see his face, don't know his name. Puzzled as I was I saw him rush for his bus just as mine closed the doors. And it was dark. The bus driver was shocked, now he showed some simpathy - "How did he get under there so fast? I haven't seen something like that in my life" he said. And I just said something that for some reason wasn't heard "An angel".
As I was discussing the weird 5 seconds that were this situation's part in history with my friend I noticed how this guy without saying a word put his own life at risk for a stupid diskman. The bus driver had no patience and wanted to close the doors, he could have just driven away while this guy was by the wheel. It was something I missed when it happened. So this guy without even knowing me did something crazy to save something that wasn't worth his own risk.

And as I sat in the bus, going on to another Deepend performance I just said - "God, there are good people among them. Bless this one. Amen". It all happened fast, but the impression it left in me, my friend and the driver is something freakingly great. No one from the other passengers said nothing, they apparently didn't see anything. It was just me taking the bus, nothing more.

So here goes this story of how you may see urban heroes doing nothing than their basic job - helping human beings, the living images of God's wisdom. This guy did something from his heart, and not in order to receive any prize, just to help. He sanctified the God he believes in through his act, and indeed changed my view on his fellows forever. I just wonder if he will get to be a 'perfect-Jew' just like me, who lives the law of Moses and has the bonus of knowing God's Son, Yeshua. May it happen, Amen.

Hey there. Well, nothing is really there to bother me writting about in a way you could see as artistic and/or professional. But I would like to summarize and argue a few things about this past week.

Let's start with the main thing: school.
School is slowly becoming my past, and as it happens I feel as if I'm not ready for it yet. I don't know really what would I be like after it's over. Since the bad feelings about school started (most stupid people say 12 years or from the first grade, they really don't know what they are talking about. We'll discuss this people a little bit more later on this post) probably at the age of 13 or 14, I started dreaming for the day I won't have to see those doors again. I dreamed about the day when I would be afraid nomore to receive letters home telling my mom that I "just missed a couple or more" (you count it) works, or even classes. As a matter of fact I really hoped this day would come, the sooner the better. And now I'm here waiting and counting my last days of high school and I can't do anything to stop it.

People always tell: "When it's over, you'll want it back" and now I understand all that. I understand why they say that and why its true. So this days are almost over, officialy June the 20th, but in two weeks I would be seeing the school less and less and concentrating more on preparing for exams. So this thing has started.

On to another subject.
The army and why not the university.

So my studies are almost over and the hour is approaching when I must decide whether to go to the army now and serve my three years as a soldier, or wait a bit and study meanwhile. After I get my degree (hopefully M.D or Medicinæ Doctor in plain language) I will have a chance to serve. But, well everything in life has a cost and all this bureaucracy happens to demand a price. As I'm still debating with myself this things about studying I find out that I'm supposed to pay an equivalent of 80-85 dollars just to get an appointment at the university. And I'm supposed to do the same thing at three different universities which means I'm paying something like 270 dollars for the whole thing. Add to it the pamyments for the psychometric lessons (also 270 dollars) and the payment for the test, which also is 80-85 dollars. Well, I end up paying loads of money for something I'm not sure off. I wonder if it couldn't be better to just go to the army, be a sniper or a paramedic or something and leave all this headache for some years. I must decide, as time is getting away easily. March 27th is my last day to send the payments and my details to the army, and as I think more of it I get to the conclusion they are going to get my denial. I can't pay so much for something I don't really want. Bah. The army.

So let's move on.
I was checking some links today and I found a myspace.com account of a friend, a female friend. Since December 2006 she hasn't post anything there. And I looked at the last post.
"I met someone... He's really nice to me... I love him and we plan to get married in July" (in short, of course)
So I thought "Oh my God! I'm getting recruited in July" oops. Sorry... I thought "Oh my God, who plans to get married at 20?!?" and I couldn't believe my eyes. She told me about this thing she's planing to do. Get married. She also told me about the fact they are living together right now in a house with a dog, just like two happily married people. Of course, kids there aren't because they still are not married! Something's wrong, something is really wrong. But I tried, I tried to be gentle and give her a little bit of feedback.
She sees it as normal - "I must live with someone some time to know if I could get along with him for the rest of my life".
Cool, but the rest of your life is something like 80 years!
- "Well, in my family people don't live and get to see those ages. I'm very sick, I got this and that and those..."
Well, I don't think your health will like to have kids at this age. If it's true, I suppose your body can't hold pregnancy yet why not wait?
- "Well, in my family there had always been problems of getting pregnant so I must do it quick"
I don't see the problem. Just adopt some kids, there is no shortage of lonelly kids looking for love in this world. I myself will adopt.
- "It's not the same. I will adopt too, but I need to know what is it like"

This would be a good conversation but it never happens. Some of the arguments are true by the way, I told her that and she answered like that. What I don't like is that is all looks like a kastach meaning its a pretext. I try hard but I see it all as a pretext. There is something about her sister too, that makes me think everything she says is a pretext. I just get mad about it.
Sometimes people act like that. They make big stuff out of nothing and every little thing looks enormous. Why? I can say now it's the lack of attention they get, but I really can't think of it just that way. I don't like to judge adults, but it all has to do with the way people raise up their children. My mom never told me to get married quickly, as her mother did. I guess that's the answer. The way you raise your children. What makes me feel bad about it is that she will eventually get married and I bet it will be this summer. She'll be happy about it, dressed in white on a horse or some other dream of her. Everything will look so perfect and good. But I am too good if I say it will hold 2 years. There is no base to that relationship, there is no base to that family in potential and there is no wisdom. She's a good believer and I guess she does her decisions according to the Will of God, but she's just a little girl with some dreams. And I'm not lying. He is a nice guy, I see he'll get to do big things. But his time has not yet come. None of them have started learning anything and to hold a family is not an easy issue economically. I just think there should be some thinking on this, it is too fast. Too quickly and I don't see the good end of it. Maybe I'm wrong, but I prefer to be careful. Just that.

So here goes my post on how this world moves. Of course, from my point of view in this part of the earth.
Good night.