Well, a new year has started and all I feel is just a great year coming up. It mainly has to do with the fact that many of my doubts and fears are all gone, and yes, I feel my head is pretty clear and so my mind. Exept for those moments when I think about her.
But, at least that doesn't affect my that much.
Ok, I know it is supposed to be a bad situation. After all, we live thousands of kilometers one from the other. But, I got to tell that for some reason it seems pretty good in some way. Well, life isn't always what you expect it to be. Right? So why try harder? I got no reason to try and write my life 'normally'. I mean, staying in the layers of standart with God, which is what matters. But if for some reason I think he is expecting a sudden change in my life which is what he thinks to be the best. Then why would I ingnore it and give up to my judgement in a way which will suit my life right now? It is unpleasant in some way, but who knows. One day you're here, the other there.
So this year of school just started. It feels weird to be in your last year of school. There's no "next year" stuff, it all has a feel of end. The end isn't that near, but in less than a year I will have to face the rigorous ways of the army. A whole new reality in some way.
I will not be a Mr. Citizen for 3 years or so. I will rely on the system of the army, and they will decide how my life will look like while I'm under their hand. Mr. Puppet, ha ha.
I have started this week thinking also about many things I got to do this year. Like start taking driving lessons. Like thinking which way to go after the army. Many say: "Well, you got the whole army to think about it!", but what if for some reason I won't be going to the army in the end. What if something happens and I got to think faster? So, at least for now, I don't know what I would like to do. I thought of using some of the money I have been keeping for the university to do a trip around the world. But I think I will invest that money in something more productive like going to the university or school of some kind right after the army.
Well, people who know me know how important it is for me to have a profession before I get married. I think there should be a strong basis for that, so yes, I am not planning to get married until that. It means that before I am 25 I won't be.
Now, don't get me wrong. I am not that kind of person who thinks money buys everything. I am not planning to be rich, I just think too many young couples are doing the same mistake thinking that there is no problem. They just get married when they are 20, and in some months you start seeing the problems pop out. It is so sad. And that is the reason I am opposed to marriage before the age of 25.
But why am I bothering now with such themes?
Lets move on. So this year started and most of my school has gone through a big change. We got a new principal (the former left after a year because he felt he couldn't do anything more to improve the school's level) and a new (old, he wasn't in the school for 2 years) guy who is in charge of our class along with some others. The teacher who is in charge of my class is a school veteran, also in charge of all the final exams. She seems pretty nice, she even offered me today to leave the class and move to another class because she is aware of the good relationship I have with the teacher there. I will check tomorrow and give her my answer, I would like very much to be with that teacher, but I think I might regret leaving my class after two years of living with them. But everyone knows that for the other teacher I would kill, so I guess I will move soon to his class. Heil Boaz the Fuhrer! Lol.
So, life is really smiling at me. And I could only smile at the thought of her. I really love you telepatit. If I once thought it was just a small crush I now start thinking your father might be right. There is something else. :)
Meanwhile, I go and arrange my academic life. So if you wouldn't mind blog...
See you.
But, at least that doesn't affect my that much.
Ok, I know it is supposed to be a bad situation. After all, we live thousands of kilometers one from the other. But, I got to tell that for some reason it seems pretty good in some way. Well, life isn't always what you expect it to be. Right? So why try harder? I got no reason to try and write my life 'normally'. I mean, staying in the layers of standart with God, which is what matters. But if for some reason I think he is expecting a sudden change in my life which is what he thinks to be the best. Then why would I ingnore it and give up to my judgement in a way which will suit my life right now? It is unpleasant in some way, but who knows. One day you're here, the other there.
So this year of school just started. It feels weird to be in your last year of school. There's no "next year" stuff, it all has a feel of end. The end isn't that near, but in less than a year I will have to face the rigorous ways of the army. A whole new reality in some way.
I will not be a Mr. Citizen for 3 years or so. I will rely on the system of the army, and they will decide how my life will look like while I'm under their hand. Mr. Puppet, ha ha.
I have started this week thinking also about many things I got to do this year. Like start taking driving lessons. Like thinking which way to go after the army. Many say: "Well, you got the whole army to think about it!", but what if for some reason I won't be going to the army in the end. What if something happens and I got to think faster? So, at least for now, I don't know what I would like to do. I thought of using some of the money I have been keeping for the university to do a trip around the world. But I think I will invest that money in something more productive like going to the university or school of some kind right after the army.
Well, people who know me know how important it is for me to have a profession before I get married. I think there should be a strong basis for that, so yes, I am not planning to get married until that. It means that before I am 25 I won't be.
Now, don't get me wrong. I am not that kind of person who thinks money buys everything. I am not planning to be rich, I just think too many young couples are doing the same mistake thinking that there is no problem. They just get married when they are 20, and in some months you start seeing the problems pop out. It is so sad. And that is the reason I am opposed to marriage before the age of 25.
But why am I bothering now with such themes?
Lets move on. So this year started and most of my school has gone through a big change. We got a new principal (the former left after a year because he felt he couldn't do anything more to improve the school's level) and a new (old, he wasn't in the school for 2 years) guy who is in charge of our class along with some others. The teacher who is in charge of my class is a school veteran, also in charge of all the final exams. She seems pretty nice, she even offered me today to leave the class and move to another class because she is aware of the good relationship I have with the teacher there. I will check tomorrow and give her my answer, I would like very much to be with that teacher, but I think I might regret leaving my class after two years of living with them. But everyone knows that for the other teacher I would kill, so I guess I will move soon to his class. Heil Boaz the Fuhrer! Lol.
So, life is really smiling at me. And I could only smile at the thought of her. I really love you telepatit. If I once thought it was just a small crush I now start thinking your father might be right. There is something else. :)
Meanwhile, I go and arrange my academic life. So if you wouldn't mind blog...
See you.
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